People change

Fourteen days until four hours of partying...thank the lord. Im actually really excited, first joint party i think since, forever ? Should be good, i do feel slightly bad for my neighbours considering there are thirty odd people coming. I'm sure they'll survive. I accidentally locked myself in the conservatory, dodgey lock. I luckily had my mobile so i rang my dad and said, 'Hi. Dad i'm erm stuck in the conservatory can you come and let me out please?!' he just burst out laughing ): cruel. Eleven days until i'm seventeen yeeehaww and sixteen days until me and Jade go to London for the day - bloody marvelous :D.

This weeks been horrible to be honest with you...my parents are getting a divorce and i constantly have this sick feeling and ache. It hurts. But keeping busy and thinking positive is kind of helping, thank god for friends. It's been raining for at least an hour now im shivering like hell. Actually hell would be hot..ha! It's sad how people change and i think its safe to say i've lost you, feckin sucks. I tried, obviously not enough. Quote of the day me thinks:-
'The best thing about a picture, is that it never changes even when the people in it do'

I'm totally craving coffee right now but there are weird people in my kitchen..urm? It'll have to wait. Right i'm off my lovelys (:

Loves
x

Asda trolley fun

Not written a post in quite a while, I'm sorry but i've kinda not been in the mood to ramble on about myself ;D. What to say? Past weeks been great, loads of bike rides with Becky...went shopping with Tom - a great excuse to nosey about it men's shops, its actually awesome, especially when Topmans changing rooms curtains dont work...get what im saying ;) ? Haha. Then went to a BBQ together which was also awesome!

Yesterday me and my sister were walking our dog down the golf course and to our amusement there was an Asda trolley. We simply looked at the trolley then at each other and clambered in, god damn funny pushing each other down the hills until she let go and i started going down backwards : bad times haha. The Golfers didn't look amused, but hey at least I can say i've driven a trolley!!

Im actually doing terrible in 6th form at the moment, im surprised i haven't been kicked out to be honest, really need the motivation to work harder but its not really working. Least of my worries at the moment. My birthday isn't that far away now - 15 days baby! Not actually doing anything on my birthday BUT me and fran are throwing a joint birthday bash BBQ on the 14th of May. Were actually so excited ! Needs a little bit more planning but it'll work out (: Oh my gosh..i can start learning to drive soon. Might wait a bit until exams are out the way :) .

Yes i know, random photo... but i was rummaging through my files and stumbled across a baby photo of myself. Thought i'd share it ;) Noming on my hand. Awwsies ! At the moment i could really do with a massive hug and some reassurance from someone, its weird. I have been through so much in the past several months and i'm still mildly sane enough to be there for other people. Wow. Moving on :D really enjoyed the summery blast of weather..i'd like it back please? Oh and Roz if your reading this, i miss you matie :\ our random webcam raving, Costa chats and just our general tardyness.

Ciao sweeties

x

You took something perfect and painted it red

Ahh today has turned out to be quite good, despite the english essay and it being a Sunday! This weekends gone way too fast for my liking..that always happens or is it just me ?! Not really looking forward to another week of college, its something like 6 weeks until our next half term, too far away i need my social life back i feel like im turning into a socially deprived student that spends half their life doing essays and coursework urgh ! Now i sound like a moaning old granny ahaha. Sorry lovies. Took a few good shots today, one in which im particularly happy with; it was such a nice day i wore a dress and boy do i miss wearing dresses. Probably the only red piece of clothing i own, i like red. What d'you think ? Just finished my English essay 'Importance of being Earnest' its actually quite a good play, but i would much prefer to be out in the sun rather than doing an essay. Wouldn't everyone ? Oh my bad, unless you actually like essays. Took a few more photos later in the day too, just randomly started making a little envelope and thought 'n'aww this is cuttee'. Yes my lovelys..this is the effect essays has on my lack of a brain.

'I love you'

Looks better when its bigger, not something i'd usually do but meh. Experimenting is key to getting better. Right must be off now sweeties!

Ciao

x

Freckle geek

Weekends are the best yeehaa ! Was supposed to get my maths results back on friday but i think i was the only one that didnt...stupid form tutor. Becky came over friday night which was good fun as per usual :) watched harry potter and gamed abit, cause were cool obviously ! Today was so hot it was insane and yes ... i have turned into a freckle geek. Dit dot dit. We decided to go for a massive bike ride down to watery gates which is basically a road that goes through a river and cars go through it and splash yayyyy!! Its a good chill spot okay? So there and back we probably did 6miles all together on our bikes. My body aches. wahhh )': took a quick photo whilst we were there as you do.

Sundays for me are basically..roast dinner and coursework. Blergh ! But its such a wonderful day outside again, it's too god damn sunny to stay inside so i will sit outside and do my work :D whap out the sunglasses and suncream, dont wanna end up like roz now do i ;) sorry sweetie !! Looked at numerous University's this morning, ordered another two prospectuses...ones in Bournemouth i think and the other in Kent. Very far away from home but still i have to get out of this place at some point, spread my wings and fly away like a crazy lady woooo ! I think the heat may be getting to me : uh oh.

I've been trying to upload a photo to this post now for ages, it didnt work yesterday and it doesnt seem to be doing it now, goodness sake. I need visuals in my blog you evil conniving hoe, i love you really blogus. Might write another post later today, knowing me i'll get distracted by my camera and end up taking a thousand photos instead of doing two essays !! Oh hello, one photo has uploaded...that will have to do !

''Ah, summer, what power you have to make us suffer and like it''

How very true that quote is, us typical brits moan about the cold and long for the heat, when it comes we moan too ;) wahey! Just discovered Jason Mraz's cover to summer breeze...intresting.

Laters my lovelys

Ciao

x

Label Me

Today's been a tough day, but managed to pull through it. Friends make it alot easier to pull through :) Did a small photoshoot kinda thing with Becky today, that girl is good to take photo's of waheyy. My theme for the art competition was sterotypes so I've done the main focus point of the photo so far, could be better but i'm happy with it. Probably should have got her to do something with her arms as lucy said but ...

''Label me''

Was good fun anyway! Took a few other shots just for the fun of it, practice makes perfect right ? Dont have alot to write about at the moment so bare with me lovelys...Loving you and leaving you

Ciao

x

Seventeen soon !

Just two days of 6th form and im fed up of it already ! Bloody hell. Anyway i wont moan about that shizzle. Had first lesson off with Lucifer so that started the day good i guess. Looking forward to tomorrow...becky's going to be my model tomorrow for this photoshoot kinda thing im starting, if its any good i will be entering it into that London art competition. Cross fingers it turns out good ! Kinda frustrating at the moment so many people are good photographers and it pushes me back thinking 'im not good enough' but what use is that view on things. I can only try my hardest ):

Yesterday i should have been doing an english essay but instead i got distracted with pretty shiny gold things and vintage wannabe crap, so i wapped out my camera and had a photo sesh...really enjoyed it as per usual. What an amazing career though it would be, University of the Arts in London pwease :D? Cant really be bothered to upload all of them so you can have a mini sample of what i got up to...
Old school for the win ;) . Talking about old school UB40 red red wine what a tune..yes im listening to it problem haha ?! Oh dear now im listening to another reggae song, not my usual music taste...hmm. Bum. Urgh was reminded about one of my ex's today, bad bad times. Perfect example of why i should move away and start fresh.

In just 4 weeks im going to be seventeen its crazy close ! Not even really thought about it much, last year i was planning it in December !! But what could i do ??!?! Until next time my lovelys.

Ciao

x

Give me sleep ?

Haven't written a post in quite a few days but oh well nothing particularly interesting has happened if im honest. It's been absolutely lovely weather at last.. i love spring for one reason, the blossom on the tree outside my window is beautiful to wake up to. Saw jade on thursday did a bit of shopping and a costa break - i've finally tried one of the muffins they're amazing ! Mmmm. Thursday night i remember being quite emotional and 'numb' as i describe it. If you know me quite well, you'll understand that im not a phone call kinda girl..in fact i dread people ringing me BUT becky rang me and we talked for 30mins or so, thats a record for me okay?! Improvements.

Friday was a damn busy day, hot too! The boyfriend bought me some beautiful flowers and we chatted for a bit before i had to shoot off out again, then i trekked to see lucy and spent the majority of the time in the garden getting attacked by flys, a swarm of tree pollen and those big momma space hoppers. Darn kids. Throwing them over the fence. pfft. Sorry my posts are a bit on the boring side at the moment but theres not much going on with me at the moment. Saw Rozaa later that night, felt like i was pissing her off big time but hey. Watched the hangover and a bit of badboys 2 wahey ! Ahaa then i officially proclaimed that we were retards, all im going to say is seven you know what i mean homie ;)

Got tonns of coursework to do tomorrow, i would have done it today but i was so dead it was unreal. Felt like a crazy zombie pondering round the house with no knowledge of the english language apart from grunting occasionally...typical moody teenage style. You know how it is - unless thats just me ? Crumbs.

Too sleepy to write anymore, goodnight lovelys
Ciao
x

Just one moment

One moment can change everything, just one moment - a moment whether it be a second, an hour, a day or a year can inspire you in a way nothing else can. Im in a really philosophical mood sorry my lovelys. The past few days my brain has been over thinking and i keep getting inspired ! Went round lucys the other day and slept round, had a great time just being ourselves and being sporty, simple things in life make it worth living you know? One moment can result in influencing someone else and effecting them in ways that arent always viewable, beyond the senses...its like a footprint in the sand. Went shopping with Roz today, as per usual i had an awesome time i think its safe to say that she is the reason im inspired. Your an amazing girl homie, everything happens for a reason and one day we'll understand why.

''Footprint in the sand''

Moments like this, make everything different...

Ciao x

Happy easter enjoy getting fat !

Happy Easter Lovelys ! I've eaten my first easter egg today and my god do i feel sick...might have something to do with the fact its a Mars easter egg, nom; i woke up at 7am !! Why ?! My eyes were wide open and i was still buzzin' from last night :D. Had a really good day yesterday, saw my boyfriend and violated him with mascara...haven't laughed so much in ages..such pretty eyes, anyway :D Took a load of photos with him so have a lookie Finally feel like i can be myself around him now..took bloody long enough haha. Never been with anyone so long, usually i get bored of them, im kind. yaowch. Moving on, went round Roz's last night and had a whale of a time..very belated birthday bash but it was well worth waiting for ;) Bridget jones, dominos pizza, cake, onion rings, wine = perfect night in. Im sure roz will upload a load of photos so your getting just the one, im lazy alright ? Didn't really know anyone apart from my homie, they all seem very nice retards (:

Tomorrow should be a good night too, finally get to see Lucy its been too long my friend ;D.

Until tomorrow sweeties,

Ciao x

Ohh i say i say

Ohh come to mamma ;) Bought my new camera today, trekked with my sister down town to collect the beauty in the pouring rain...she's bought some new converse and at first i absolutely hated them. But they're actually pretty nice, i'll have to take a photo of them later (: Anyway been playing around with the camera and took one or two photos, bloody amazing going from a 5mp to a 12.2mp camera is a big jump. I'm left with 50p left...no kidding. Only just realised its Good Friday, Happy Easter ? Parents have gone to London, literally i come back from London and they went...two west end shows Billy Elliot AND Chicago im majorly jealous, especially the Billy elliot one, love that film ahh. Asked them to buy me an 'I love London' mug...i forgot to buy one okay i hope they've remembered ?! Okay so heres my new necklace pocket watch, kinda in love with it :') wasn't cheap, got a vintage look dont you think ? Taken with my new camera eeee !! And the photo below..is my eye, dont ask, just testing it out :D
I need to arrange to see a few people soon, actually been busy this easter..surprisingly - pwap party is in order Lucifer Maximus ! Oops, might be an idea to see my boyfriend too...its been a week since i last saw him.. oopps? Rozza's very belated birthday bash tomorrow night should be a good laugh even though i don't know anyone but hey what does it matter. Usually i would run away in a frenzy and panic that i'd sit in the corner rocking all alone. Anyway. I'm off to start our dinner, curry me thinks. Hope parents come back soon ):

Ciao little ones
x

London is the place to be !

London my lovelys, was absolutely amazing..obviously i didn't see all of it but from what i saw, it was amazing. Defiantly be going again perhaps in the summer when its less cold ! The day didn't go to a good start we lost beckys mum on the underground and the train bloke wasn't very reassuring, 'you're in extreme trouble' thanks for that mate ! Found her eventually...thank god was pretty funny though ! Saw the Queen too...now thats something ;) So yeah, visited loads of places and did a spot of shopping really good time :D

Can't be bothered to show you loads of pictures sorry :D. Had a good time at Beckys too, after i got back i had a quick Costa abusing session with Rozza, my legs sting and now i am shattered so i bid you goodbye sweeties.

Ciao x