From my heart to yours

People change, including me...I've learnt alot about myself this year. Strange how quickly things can happen and how all of a sudden someone can be out of your life in a flash. Having a day alone really makes you think about things, good once in a while to be alone with your thoughts, other times not so good. I've mucked up so much recently im annoying myself, I'm difficult and moody and eurgh! I'm sorry i've hurt you and let you down, but no-ones perfect and the fact i'm still here for you if you need me and through all thats going on. I dont hate you.

Learnt a new song on the guitar, slowly getting better.. ever so slowly ! Have my last exam tomorrow, havent revised...whats wrong with me jeash : haven't seen everyone in such a long time, a levels ruining our social lives and its making us hermits pfft. I keep getting that horrible sick feeling and i dont want to be a slave to the way i feel about you.. :

You'll be reading this now and laughing but meh, maybe you can trust me now. If not i've just exposed myself for nothing. Went out with Jade yesterday bought a new top and watched the film 'Letters to juliet' im a sucker for a bit of romance, why cant life be as romantic and perfect as it is in the movies :( unrealistic love stories yet us girls keep watching them !

Ciao x

Just a quick one

Went to sleep at 2:30am and woke up at 5:30am im bloody insane, surprisingly refreshed i'll probably feel bloody shattered later !! I've pretty much done everything gah: saw the sunrise, tidyed my room, had cheerios and coffee :D, showered got changed did hair did makeup and now its 7:30pm jesus christ D:

Somethings seriously wrong with me, bad idea having coffee as soon as you wake up kinda shakey now..blergh ! Was talking to them until 2:30 then they fell asleep, as a result i fell asleep so woke up with webcam still on :') im so unattractive in the morning ! Now im listening to ellie goulding, shes a bit of a legend. I haven't revised yet really should but i seem to think exams aren't near. Bugger. Looks like it's going to be another amazing day

''Early morning start''

Good photo to whoever took it, i want that cup. Just realised i've got too many mugs..one london starbucks, normal starbucks and one beautiful damask one - its official, im a coffee geek. Right i've mumbled on about feck all so im off now sweeties (:

''You ask yourself theres got to be more than what im livin for, you ask your self theres got to be something more...well let the sunshine on your face, don't like your life go to waste''

Ciao my lovelys

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I make lists..

I should be revising but frankly i cant save myself now...its too late. I've read one of the books and looked over a few notes and quickly peeked at a few key words. Enough now until later. In other words cram it all in tomorrow morning ! Decided to do a nice list of the things i want to do at the moment so here i go (:

-Stop biting my nails
-Finish my early years course (it's gonna take a frickin' miracle)
-Do the photography project
-Lose 7 pounds (good luck on that one ha)
-Revise properly for other exams
-Save my £100 and not be tempted to buy a digital SLR
-Be brave and get the tattoo done
-Socialise!

Short post but i have no time sorry. Until tomorrow lovelys (:
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Un-british like weather

This weather is perfection so since i'm british i'm obviously going to comment on the weather ;) - ''Totally spiffing isn't it?! What what.'' Last night i stayed up with you until 3am i know i shouldn't have but you made me feel alive again. My brain is really frustrating me...i dont know what to do, i dont know how to feel and i just don't know. This blog isn't going to make much sense but if you are reading this .. don't ask haha. More of a post letting my feelings out, blogger's good for that im sure you'll agree (: ?

I've listened to Coldplay and MGMT since i woke up and i'm still not bored of them, love it when you find tracks you can listen to over and over again. Excellent. Oh gosh, get out my mind. I feel so horrible about this all, someone's gonna end up hurting and pain sucks. Why cant things be simple hmph. Mmm banana flavoured bubble gum om nom nom :D yeah anyway.

My freckles have gone bananza today, sat up on the roof with my sister..love the fact i can do that! Apart from we sit by the edges just incase it collapses haha, that'd be the end of us ! I really wouldnt mind a nice Pimms & lemonade right now or a Pina Colada get with the summery feel kinda thing. Wow, my sentences are mega short today. Really should be revising English since my exams on thursday, forget it my brains busy at the moment. Your fault gah. I can't write anymore, i'll leave you with a snippet from a coldplay song (:

''Oh no i see, a spider web and it's me in the middle, so i twist and turn, here i am in love in a bubble''

Totally love that picture, whoever took it's awesome. Anyway, i'm off to lye down and think about you even though i shouldn't.

Ciao sweeties x

Honestly, I love you blog.

My blog has slowly been forgotten over the last god knows how many weeks its been, i apologise for my despicable behaviour. But its not like you survive on my posts so i need not worry. This year is going scarily fast it's freaking me out, Im seventeen now...soon i will be parading the streets with my driving skills, im gonna wait a little. Yeah it was my birthday on Tuesday and me and one of my mates decided to do a joint 17th party. It was frickin immense - best party since...ever. We were very proud of ourselves i'll have you know, big heads much? Nah ! One of my favourite photos that night, great!Exam leaves started, the best bit about school ;) ! My English exam isn't for another nine days so i'm gonna chill for a day or two. Yes i know i should revise but im highly stressed out especially since it was my art deadline yesterday and i completed it in a very vague manner, not impressed with myself. I hadn't slept since Saturday night after the party, didn't know how much i actually drank but i had a sandpaper like tongue.

Anyway. Yeah. Where was i ? Oh right yeah !! Sunday i went to London and it was amazing, despite me crying & the rain hurling down. The bits that made it so much better were the fact i was actually in London again, random italians asking us to give them a tour of London, the sheer amount of coffee i drank, the fact my aunty/cousin/whatever she is its complicated bought me a London starbucks mug and then raving to 80s music the entire journey home in the car embarrassing random drivers made it amazing ! and breath charlotte...*breathes*. I hope this blog post is up to your high standards my lovelys. If not...well .. :'(

Ciao my lovelys

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Spastic head rolls

Well hello there my lovelys! This house is terribly cold...what a poor excuse for heating. Anyway, woke up bright and early for Roz today and tottled into Costa for a morning brew...had a nice catch up finally ;) ! Bought a small BBQ today and some charcoal for the party, put it together nice and quick to discover my dads decided he's gonna buy a big one : i wasted £8 ! Well it is going to be used for heat outside and to toast marshmellows :D old school style. The bag i put it in was a bit too small, and so were the handles so my hand had to stretch, it was cold out there and by the time i got home my hand had frozen into a pedo grab style claw...then it thawed ahaha. So there you go Roza...didn't make a complete embarrassment of myself !

This 'long' weekend .. is going too fast, heart-breaking sob sob, i want more more more !! Decided to get back into breakdancing today..if you can call my attempts that, havent done it for over a year so i'm kind of not flexible as i used to be. Back in me day. Practice makes perfect ? Unfortunately whilst trying to do a shoulder freeze i suffocated in my flubber and did several spastic rolls onto my head. My idea of fun (:

Phwoar have alot of work to do tomorrow, ooo random photo - part of my project in art, don't i look attractive as a skull ?!

Don't think i was aware this was being taken. Anyhow im going now !
Ciao
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People change

Fourteen days until four hours of partying...thank the lord. Im actually really excited, first joint party i think since, forever ? Should be good, i do feel slightly bad for my neighbours considering there are thirty odd people coming. I'm sure they'll survive. I accidentally locked myself in the conservatory, dodgey lock. I luckily had my mobile so i rang my dad and said, 'Hi. Dad i'm erm stuck in the conservatory can you come and let me out please?!' he just burst out laughing ): cruel. Eleven days until i'm seventeen yeeehaww and sixteen days until me and Jade go to London for the day - bloody marvelous :D.

This weeks been horrible to be honest with you...my parents are getting a divorce and i constantly have this sick feeling and ache. It hurts. But keeping busy and thinking positive is kind of helping, thank god for friends. It's been raining for at least an hour now im shivering like hell. Actually hell would be hot..ha! It's sad how people change and i think its safe to say i've lost you, feckin sucks. I tried, obviously not enough. Quote of the day me thinks:-
'The best thing about a picture, is that it never changes even when the people in it do'

I'm totally craving coffee right now but there are weird people in my kitchen..urm? It'll have to wait. Right i'm off my lovelys (:

Loves
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