I make lists..

I should be revising but frankly i cant save myself now...its too late. I've read one of the books and looked over a few notes and quickly peeked at a few key words. Enough now until later. In other words cram it all in tomorrow morning ! Decided to do a nice list of the things i want to do at the moment so here i go (:

-Stop biting my nails
-Finish my early years course (it's gonna take a frickin' miracle)
-Do the photography project
-Lose 7 pounds (good luck on that one ha)
-Revise properly for other exams
-Save my £100 and not be tempted to buy a digital SLR
-Be brave and get the tattoo done
-Socialise!

Short post but i have no time sorry. Until tomorrow lovelys (:
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Un-british like weather

This weather is perfection so since i'm british i'm obviously going to comment on the weather ;) - ''Totally spiffing isn't it?! What what.'' Last night i stayed up with you until 3am i know i shouldn't have but you made me feel alive again. My brain is really frustrating me...i dont know what to do, i dont know how to feel and i just don't know. This blog isn't going to make much sense but if you are reading this .. don't ask haha. More of a post letting my feelings out, blogger's good for that im sure you'll agree (: ?

I've listened to Coldplay and MGMT since i woke up and i'm still not bored of them, love it when you find tracks you can listen to over and over again. Excellent. Oh gosh, get out my mind. I feel so horrible about this all, someone's gonna end up hurting and pain sucks. Why cant things be simple hmph. Mmm banana flavoured bubble gum om nom nom :D yeah anyway.

My freckles have gone bananza today, sat up on the roof with my sister..love the fact i can do that! Apart from we sit by the edges just incase it collapses haha, that'd be the end of us ! I really wouldnt mind a nice Pimms & lemonade right now or a Pina Colada get with the summery feel kinda thing. Wow, my sentences are mega short today. Really should be revising English since my exams on thursday, forget it my brains busy at the moment. Your fault gah. I can't write anymore, i'll leave you with a snippet from a coldplay song (:

''Oh no i see, a spider web and it's me in the middle, so i twist and turn, here i am in love in a bubble''

Totally love that picture, whoever took it's awesome. Anyway, i'm off to lye down and think about you even though i shouldn't.

Ciao sweeties x

Honestly, I love you blog.

My blog has slowly been forgotten over the last god knows how many weeks its been, i apologise for my despicable behaviour. But its not like you survive on my posts so i need not worry. This year is going scarily fast it's freaking me out, Im seventeen now...soon i will be parading the streets with my driving skills, im gonna wait a little. Yeah it was my birthday on Tuesday and me and one of my mates decided to do a joint 17th party. It was frickin immense - best party since...ever. We were very proud of ourselves i'll have you know, big heads much? Nah ! One of my favourite photos that night, great!Exam leaves started, the best bit about school ;) ! My English exam isn't for another nine days so i'm gonna chill for a day or two. Yes i know i should revise but im highly stressed out especially since it was my art deadline yesterday and i completed it in a very vague manner, not impressed with myself. I hadn't slept since Saturday night after the party, didn't know how much i actually drank but i had a sandpaper like tongue.

Anyway. Yeah. Where was i ? Oh right yeah !! Sunday i went to London and it was amazing, despite me crying & the rain hurling down. The bits that made it so much better were the fact i was actually in London again, random italians asking us to give them a tour of London, the sheer amount of coffee i drank, the fact my aunty/cousin/whatever she is its complicated bought me a London starbucks mug and then raving to 80s music the entire journey home in the car embarrassing random drivers made it amazing ! and breath charlotte...*breathes*. I hope this blog post is up to your high standards my lovelys. If not...well .. :'(

Ciao my lovelys

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p.s blog..iloveyou x

Spastic head rolls

Well hello there my lovelys! This house is terribly cold...what a poor excuse for heating. Anyway, woke up bright and early for Roz today and tottled into Costa for a morning brew...had a nice catch up finally ;) ! Bought a small BBQ today and some charcoal for the party, put it together nice and quick to discover my dads decided he's gonna buy a big one : i wasted £8 ! Well it is going to be used for heat outside and to toast marshmellows :D old school style. The bag i put it in was a bit too small, and so were the handles so my hand had to stretch, it was cold out there and by the time i got home my hand had frozen into a pedo grab style claw...then it thawed ahaha. So there you go Roza...didn't make a complete embarrassment of myself !

This 'long' weekend .. is going too fast, heart-breaking sob sob, i want more more more !! Decided to get back into breakdancing today..if you can call my attempts that, havent done it for over a year so i'm kind of not flexible as i used to be. Back in me day. Practice makes perfect ? Unfortunately whilst trying to do a shoulder freeze i suffocated in my flubber and did several spastic rolls onto my head. My idea of fun (:

Phwoar have alot of work to do tomorrow, ooo random photo - part of my project in art, don't i look attractive as a skull ?!

Don't think i was aware this was being taken. Anyhow im going now !
Ciao
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People change

Fourteen days until four hours of partying...thank the lord. Im actually really excited, first joint party i think since, forever ? Should be good, i do feel slightly bad for my neighbours considering there are thirty odd people coming. I'm sure they'll survive. I accidentally locked myself in the conservatory, dodgey lock. I luckily had my mobile so i rang my dad and said, 'Hi. Dad i'm erm stuck in the conservatory can you come and let me out please?!' he just burst out laughing ): cruel. Eleven days until i'm seventeen yeeehaww and sixteen days until me and Jade go to London for the day - bloody marvelous :D.

This weeks been horrible to be honest with you...my parents are getting a divorce and i constantly have this sick feeling and ache. It hurts. But keeping busy and thinking positive is kind of helping, thank god for friends. It's been raining for at least an hour now im shivering like hell. Actually hell would be hot..ha! It's sad how people change and i think its safe to say i've lost you, feckin sucks. I tried, obviously not enough. Quote of the day me thinks:-
'The best thing about a picture, is that it never changes even when the people in it do'

I'm totally craving coffee right now but there are weird people in my kitchen..urm? It'll have to wait. Right i'm off my lovelys (:

Loves
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Asda trolley fun

Not written a post in quite a while, I'm sorry but i've kinda not been in the mood to ramble on about myself ;D. What to say? Past weeks been great, loads of bike rides with Becky...went shopping with Tom - a great excuse to nosey about it men's shops, its actually awesome, especially when Topmans changing rooms curtains dont work...get what im saying ;) ? Haha. Then went to a BBQ together which was also awesome!

Yesterday me and my sister were walking our dog down the golf course and to our amusement there was an Asda trolley. We simply looked at the trolley then at each other and clambered in, god damn funny pushing each other down the hills until she let go and i started going down backwards : bad times haha. The Golfers didn't look amused, but hey at least I can say i've driven a trolley!!

Im actually doing terrible in 6th form at the moment, im surprised i haven't been kicked out to be honest, really need the motivation to work harder but its not really working. Least of my worries at the moment. My birthday isn't that far away now - 15 days baby! Not actually doing anything on my birthday BUT me and fran are throwing a joint birthday bash BBQ on the 14th of May. Were actually so excited ! Needs a little bit more planning but it'll work out (: Oh my gosh..i can start learning to drive soon. Might wait a bit until exams are out the way :) .

Yes i know, random photo... but i was rummaging through my files and stumbled across a baby photo of myself. Thought i'd share it ;) Noming on my hand. Awwsies ! At the moment i could really do with a massive hug and some reassurance from someone, its weird. I have been through so much in the past several months and i'm still mildly sane enough to be there for other people. Wow. Moving on :D really enjoyed the summery blast of weather..i'd like it back please? Oh and Roz if your reading this, i miss you matie :\ our random webcam raving, Costa chats and just our general tardyness.

Ciao sweeties

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You took something perfect and painted it red

Ahh today has turned out to be quite good, despite the english essay and it being a Sunday! This weekends gone way too fast for my liking..that always happens or is it just me ?! Not really looking forward to another week of college, its something like 6 weeks until our next half term, too far away i need my social life back i feel like im turning into a socially deprived student that spends half their life doing essays and coursework urgh ! Now i sound like a moaning old granny ahaha. Sorry lovies. Took a few good shots today, one in which im particularly happy with; it was such a nice day i wore a dress and boy do i miss wearing dresses. Probably the only red piece of clothing i own, i like red. What d'you think ? Just finished my English essay 'Importance of being Earnest' its actually quite a good play, but i would much prefer to be out in the sun rather than doing an essay. Wouldn't everyone ? Oh my bad, unless you actually like essays. Took a few more photos later in the day too, just randomly started making a little envelope and thought 'n'aww this is cuttee'. Yes my lovelys..this is the effect essays has on my lack of a brain.

'I love you'

Looks better when its bigger, not something i'd usually do but meh. Experimenting is key to getting better. Right must be off now sweeties!

Ciao

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