Rambling on

Haven't written a proper post in quite some time, not that it gets read or anything but oh well. What have i been up to, lets see..parties,shopping, meeting new people, cinemas to see letters to Juliet,inception and eclipse. Inception was the best, great film im telling you and yesterday i went for a massive picnic with peoples and i got to row a boat down stratford :). Fun fun fun.

Made everyone laugh yesterday, guy wanted a group photo and there was no where to put the camera and i shouted 'waiiit i have a tripod in my bag' then i whapped out the massive tripod from my tiny bag, amusing stuffs. Made people laugh, laughing is good. Now i feel super tired, run-down and dead. It's my mission tonight to be in bed for 11pm and attempt to sleep cause damn do i need it D:

Applied for college moments ago...maybe i'll get an interview who knows, maybe i'll go to college and do photography or maybe i wont. Nothings certain with me anymore ): *sigh*. Ohh i drove for the first time ever at the weekend in my mums car, what a buzz :') so yeah also just asked a driving school how much they're going to charge me to parade around on the roads in a car. Me, in a car, driving? oh this should be amusing. I need to drive soo much, more than ever actually. Independence is useful especially now.

If you do actually pay attention to my posts i always put a picture up, it looks terribly bare without one. So here, have a picture, one i took yaya.

Right i must be off to do me chores..

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Ciao beautifuls

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Quick quote

''Some stories dont have a clear beginning, middle and end,

life is about not knowing, having to change,

taking the moment & making the best of it,

without knowing whats going to happen next.''

Photoshoot

Home alone baby :') !!! Dad and sister left at 5am this morning for Ibiza, unfortunately i woke up too oh well i'll survive. Going to see best mate later on which shall be good fun :D !!

My mum's doing some recording at the moment for a small album kind of thing and she wanted me to take photos for the cover and i'm getting paid oh this feels good ;) Was really fun...basically she sang and i took the photos and yes i 'sang' along too. Terribly may i add ! Looking forward to Saturday cause im giving my room a bit of a new look, i get excited about these things okay ?!

I love my mamma, wish i inherited the singing gene...pfft. Right one more photo then i must be off, thing to do places to be ;) !

Ciao

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Grr.

You've left me in complete silence...thanks for that. I haven't even done anything wrong ? Atleast tell me you want nothing to do with me anymore, painful yeah. But better than not knowing. I give up :) i tried. Give me a Costa now, oui ?

New day, new life, new me

Wow. What the hell was i thinking. I've just snapped out of it and bloody hell...that was completly pathetic of me ! Mmmm yeah im not letting myself go back there. I deserve better, i know i do and no thats not being big headed. Everyone has the right to be happy and frankly i wasn't.

''New day, new life, new me''

I hope your happy whatever you choose :)

Ciao

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When that day comes i shall futterwacken..vigorously

Perfect day for a photoshoot :) hopefully they are free ! Actually had an early night for once and a long lie in...feel as fresh as a daisy. Im going to become terribly freckly and pink if i step outside, dislike my freckles ! Got my provisional licence form yesterday, photo too..i look miserable. Why can't we smile on passport photos ?! Happiness is goooood. While other's prefer to be grumpy and mull over depressing things i like to see the positive side, even if it takes me a little while! Random picture i took...is it me or do i have strange eyes...I wish you replied to my texts, i feel forgotten :(

Ahhh i have the urge to take photos...wheres my model ?! Anyway, a random quote from Alice and wonderland..amazing film.

''There is a place. Like no place on earth. A land full of wonder, mystery and danger! Some say to survive it: You need to be as mad as a hatter....which luckily i am''

Have a good day !
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Weekend alass

Maths exam this morning, had a blonde moment and forgot some shapes : ha. But other than that i think i did pretty well ! I'm in a suspiciously good mood, i dont even know why...went town with the best mate today :) missed the tard. Bought some Red Diesel love that perfume not had it for years, perfume collection is slowly building back up - i like smelling good ? Mmm. Had a Costa of course and talked about what the hell were going to do, cause frankly me and lucy aren't destined for A levels. Oh oh oh and not forgetting I love you (: uploaded this photo for you since you abused my face.pfft.

'Waste of a starbucks bag, ha'

Took some photos cause i got bored, im not usually vain. Infact i pretty much hate my ugly mug of a face. Meh. Ohh thats a point i've uploaded them onto deviantart had it for ages, DA is awesome, heres my address anyway :- http://www.mademoiselle-lou.deviantart.com/ yeah yeah.

I'm off now my lovely's have a good weekend (:

Ciao

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From my heart to yours

People change, including me...I've learnt alot about myself this year. Strange how quickly things can happen and how all of a sudden someone can be out of your life in a flash. Having a day alone really makes you think about things, good once in a while to be alone with your thoughts, other times not so good. I've mucked up so much recently im annoying myself, I'm difficult and moody and eurgh! I'm sorry i've hurt you and let you down, but no-ones perfect and the fact i'm still here for you if you need me and through all thats going on. I dont hate you.

Learnt a new song on the guitar, slowly getting better.. ever so slowly ! Have my last exam tomorrow, havent revised...whats wrong with me jeash : haven't seen everyone in such a long time, a levels ruining our social lives and its making us hermits pfft. I keep getting that horrible sick feeling and i dont want to be a slave to the way i feel about you.. :

You'll be reading this now and laughing but meh, maybe you can trust me now. If not i've just exposed myself for nothing. Went out with Jade yesterday bought a new top and watched the film 'Letters to juliet' im a sucker for a bit of romance, why cant life be as romantic and perfect as it is in the movies :( unrealistic love stories yet us girls keep watching them !

Ciao x

Just a quick one

Went to sleep at 2:30am and woke up at 5:30am im bloody insane, surprisingly refreshed i'll probably feel bloody shattered later !! I've pretty much done everything gah: saw the sunrise, tidyed my room, had cheerios and coffee :D, showered got changed did hair did makeup and now its 7:30pm jesus christ D:

Somethings seriously wrong with me, bad idea having coffee as soon as you wake up kinda shakey now..blergh ! Was talking to them until 2:30 then they fell asleep, as a result i fell asleep so woke up with webcam still on :') im so unattractive in the morning ! Now im listening to ellie goulding, shes a bit of a legend. I haven't revised yet really should but i seem to think exams aren't near. Bugger. Looks like it's going to be another amazing day

''Early morning start''

Good photo to whoever took it, i want that cup. Just realised i've got too many mugs..one london starbucks, normal starbucks and one beautiful damask one - its official, im a coffee geek. Right i've mumbled on about feck all so im off now sweeties (:

''You ask yourself theres got to be more than what im livin for, you ask your self theres got to be something more...well let the sunshine on your face, don't like your life go to waste''

Ciao my lovelys

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I make lists..

I should be revising but frankly i cant save myself now...its too late. I've read one of the books and looked over a few notes and quickly peeked at a few key words. Enough now until later. In other words cram it all in tomorrow morning ! Decided to do a nice list of the things i want to do at the moment so here i go (:

-Stop biting my nails
-Finish my early years course (it's gonna take a frickin' miracle)
-Do the photography project
-Lose 7 pounds (good luck on that one ha)
-Revise properly for other exams
-Save my £100 and not be tempted to buy a digital SLR
-Be brave and get the tattoo done
-Socialise!

Short post but i have no time sorry. Until tomorrow lovelys (:
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Un-british like weather

This weather is perfection so since i'm british i'm obviously going to comment on the weather ;) - ''Totally spiffing isn't it?! What what.'' Last night i stayed up with you until 3am i know i shouldn't have but you made me feel alive again. My brain is really frustrating me...i dont know what to do, i dont know how to feel and i just don't know. This blog isn't going to make much sense but if you are reading this .. don't ask haha. More of a post letting my feelings out, blogger's good for that im sure you'll agree (: ?

I've listened to Coldplay and MGMT since i woke up and i'm still not bored of them, love it when you find tracks you can listen to over and over again. Excellent. Oh gosh, get out my mind. I feel so horrible about this all, someone's gonna end up hurting and pain sucks. Why cant things be simple hmph. Mmm banana flavoured bubble gum om nom nom :D yeah anyway.

My freckles have gone bananza today, sat up on the roof with my sister..love the fact i can do that! Apart from we sit by the edges just incase it collapses haha, that'd be the end of us ! I really wouldnt mind a nice Pimms & lemonade right now or a Pina Colada get with the summery feel kinda thing. Wow, my sentences are mega short today. Really should be revising English since my exams on thursday, forget it my brains busy at the moment. Your fault gah. I can't write anymore, i'll leave you with a snippet from a coldplay song (:

''Oh no i see, a spider web and it's me in the middle, so i twist and turn, here i am in love in a bubble''

Totally love that picture, whoever took it's awesome. Anyway, i'm off to lye down and think about you even though i shouldn't.

Ciao sweeties x

Honestly, I love you blog.

My blog has slowly been forgotten over the last god knows how many weeks its been, i apologise for my despicable behaviour. But its not like you survive on my posts so i need not worry. This year is going scarily fast it's freaking me out, Im seventeen now...soon i will be parading the streets with my driving skills, im gonna wait a little. Yeah it was my birthday on Tuesday and me and one of my mates decided to do a joint 17th party. It was frickin immense - best party since...ever. We were very proud of ourselves i'll have you know, big heads much? Nah ! One of my favourite photos that night, great!Exam leaves started, the best bit about school ;) ! My English exam isn't for another nine days so i'm gonna chill for a day or two. Yes i know i should revise but im highly stressed out especially since it was my art deadline yesterday and i completed it in a very vague manner, not impressed with myself. I hadn't slept since Saturday night after the party, didn't know how much i actually drank but i had a sandpaper like tongue.

Anyway. Yeah. Where was i ? Oh right yeah !! Sunday i went to London and it was amazing, despite me crying & the rain hurling down. The bits that made it so much better were the fact i was actually in London again, random italians asking us to give them a tour of London, the sheer amount of coffee i drank, the fact my aunty/cousin/whatever she is its complicated bought me a London starbucks mug and then raving to 80s music the entire journey home in the car embarrassing random drivers made it amazing ! and breath charlotte...*breathes*. I hope this blog post is up to your high standards my lovelys. If not...well .. :'(

Ciao my lovelys

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Spastic head rolls

Well hello there my lovelys! This house is terribly cold...what a poor excuse for heating. Anyway, woke up bright and early for Roz today and tottled into Costa for a morning brew...had a nice catch up finally ;) ! Bought a small BBQ today and some charcoal for the party, put it together nice and quick to discover my dads decided he's gonna buy a big one : i wasted £8 ! Well it is going to be used for heat outside and to toast marshmellows :D old school style. The bag i put it in was a bit too small, and so were the handles so my hand had to stretch, it was cold out there and by the time i got home my hand had frozen into a pedo grab style claw...then it thawed ahaha. So there you go Roza...didn't make a complete embarrassment of myself !

This 'long' weekend .. is going too fast, heart-breaking sob sob, i want more more more !! Decided to get back into breakdancing today..if you can call my attempts that, havent done it for over a year so i'm kind of not flexible as i used to be. Back in me day. Practice makes perfect ? Unfortunately whilst trying to do a shoulder freeze i suffocated in my flubber and did several spastic rolls onto my head. My idea of fun (:

Phwoar have alot of work to do tomorrow, ooo random photo - part of my project in art, don't i look attractive as a skull ?!

Don't think i was aware this was being taken. Anyhow im going now !
Ciao
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People change

Fourteen days until four hours of partying...thank the lord. Im actually really excited, first joint party i think since, forever ? Should be good, i do feel slightly bad for my neighbours considering there are thirty odd people coming. I'm sure they'll survive. I accidentally locked myself in the conservatory, dodgey lock. I luckily had my mobile so i rang my dad and said, 'Hi. Dad i'm erm stuck in the conservatory can you come and let me out please?!' he just burst out laughing ): cruel. Eleven days until i'm seventeen yeeehaww and sixteen days until me and Jade go to London for the day - bloody marvelous :D.

This weeks been horrible to be honest with you...my parents are getting a divorce and i constantly have this sick feeling and ache. It hurts. But keeping busy and thinking positive is kind of helping, thank god for friends. It's been raining for at least an hour now im shivering like hell. Actually hell would be hot..ha! It's sad how people change and i think its safe to say i've lost you, feckin sucks. I tried, obviously not enough. Quote of the day me thinks:-
'The best thing about a picture, is that it never changes even when the people in it do'

I'm totally craving coffee right now but there are weird people in my kitchen..urm? It'll have to wait. Right i'm off my lovelys (:

Loves
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Asda trolley fun

Not written a post in quite a while, I'm sorry but i've kinda not been in the mood to ramble on about myself ;D. What to say? Past weeks been great, loads of bike rides with Becky...went shopping with Tom - a great excuse to nosey about it men's shops, its actually awesome, especially when Topmans changing rooms curtains dont work...get what im saying ;) ? Haha. Then went to a BBQ together which was also awesome!

Yesterday me and my sister were walking our dog down the golf course and to our amusement there was an Asda trolley. We simply looked at the trolley then at each other and clambered in, god damn funny pushing each other down the hills until she let go and i started going down backwards : bad times haha. The Golfers didn't look amused, but hey at least I can say i've driven a trolley!!

Im actually doing terrible in 6th form at the moment, im surprised i haven't been kicked out to be honest, really need the motivation to work harder but its not really working. Least of my worries at the moment. My birthday isn't that far away now - 15 days baby! Not actually doing anything on my birthday BUT me and fran are throwing a joint birthday bash BBQ on the 14th of May. Were actually so excited ! Needs a little bit more planning but it'll work out (: Oh my gosh..i can start learning to drive soon. Might wait a bit until exams are out the way :) .

Yes i know, random photo... but i was rummaging through my files and stumbled across a baby photo of myself. Thought i'd share it ;) Noming on my hand. Awwsies ! At the moment i could really do with a massive hug and some reassurance from someone, its weird. I have been through so much in the past several months and i'm still mildly sane enough to be there for other people. Wow. Moving on :D really enjoyed the summery blast of weather..i'd like it back please? Oh and Roz if your reading this, i miss you matie :\ our random webcam raving, Costa chats and just our general tardyness.

Ciao sweeties

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You took something perfect and painted it red

Ahh today has turned out to be quite good, despite the english essay and it being a Sunday! This weekends gone way too fast for my liking..that always happens or is it just me ?! Not really looking forward to another week of college, its something like 6 weeks until our next half term, too far away i need my social life back i feel like im turning into a socially deprived student that spends half their life doing essays and coursework urgh ! Now i sound like a moaning old granny ahaha. Sorry lovies. Took a few good shots today, one in which im particularly happy with; it was such a nice day i wore a dress and boy do i miss wearing dresses. Probably the only red piece of clothing i own, i like red. What d'you think ? Just finished my English essay 'Importance of being Earnest' its actually quite a good play, but i would much prefer to be out in the sun rather than doing an essay. Wouldn't everyone ? Oh my bad, unless you actually like essays. Took a few more photos later in the day too, just randomly started making a little envelope and thought 'n'aww this is cuttee'. Yes my lovelys..this is the effect essays has on my lack of a brain.

'I love you'

Looks better when its bigger, not something i'd usually do but meh. Experimenting is key to getting better. Right must be off now sweeties!

Ciao

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Freckle geek

Weekends are the best yeehaa ! Was supposed to get my maths results back on friday but i think i was the only one that didnt...stupid form tutor. Becky came over friday night which was good fun as per usual :) watched harry potter and gamed abit, cause were cool obviously ! Today was so hot it was insane and yes ... i have turned into a freckle geek. Dit dot dit. We decided to go for a massive bike ride down to watery gates which is basically a road that goes through a river and cars go through it and splash yayyyy!! Its a good chill spot okay? So there and back we probably did 6miles all together on our bikes. My body aches. wahhh )': took a quick photo whilst we were there as you do.

Sundays for me are basically..roast dinner and coursework. Blergh ! But its such a wonderful day outside again, it's too god damn sunny to stay inside so i will sit outside and do my work :D whap out the sunglasses and suncream, dont wanna end up like roz now do i ;) sorry sweetie !! Looked at numerous University's this morning, ordered another two prospectuses...ones in Bournemouth i think and the other in Kent. Very far away from home but still i have to get out of this place at some point, spread my wings and fly away like a crazy lady woooo ! I think the heat may be getting to me : uh oh.

I've been trying to upload a photo to this post now for ages, it didnt work yesterday and it doesnt seem to be doing it now, goodness sake. I need visuals in my blog you evil conniving hoe, i love you really blogus. Might write another post later today, knowing me i'll get distracted by my camera and end up taking a thousand photos instead of doing two essays !! Oh hello, one photo has uploaded...that will have to do !

''Ah, summer, what power you have to make us suffer and like it''

How very true that quote is, us typical brits moan about the cold and long for the heat, when it comes we moan too ;) wahey! Just discovered Jason Mraz's cover to summer breeze...intresting.

Laters my lovelys

Ciao

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Label Me

Today's been a tough day, but managed to pull through it. Friends make it alot easier to pull through :) Did a small photoshoot kinda thing with Becky today, that girl is good to take photo's of waheyy. My theme for the art competition was sterotypes so I've done the main focus point of the photo so far, could be better but i'm happy with it. Probably should have got her to do something with her arms as lucy said but ...

''Label me''

Was good fun anyway! Took a few other shots just for the fun of it, practice makes perfect right ? Dont have alot to write about at the moment so bare with me lovelys...Loving you and leaving you

Ciao

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Seventeen soon !

Just two days of 6th form and im fed up of it already ! Bloody hell. Anyway i wont moan about that shizzle. Had first lesson off with Lucifer so that started the day good i guess. Looking forward to tomorrow...becky's going to be my model tomorrow for this photoshoot kinda thing im starting, if its any good i will be entering it into that London art competition. Cross fingers it turns out good ! Kinda frustrating at the moment so many people are good photographers and it pushes me back thinking 'im not good enough' but what use is that view on things. I can only try my hardest ):

Yesterday i should have been doing an english essay but instead i got distracted with pretty shiny gold things and vintage wannabe crap, so i wapped out my camera and had a photo sesh...really enjoyed it as per usual. What an amazing career though it would be, University of the Arts in London pwease :D? Cant really be bothered to upload all of them so you can have a mini sample of what i got up to...
Old school for the win ;) . Talking about old school UB40 red red wine what a tune..yes im listening to it problem haha ?! Oh dear now im listening to another reggae song, not my usual music taste...hmm. Bum. Urgh was reminded about one of my ex's today, bad bad times. Perfect example of why i should move away and start fresh.

In just 4 weeks im going to be seventeen its crazy close ! Not even really thought about it much, last year i was planning it in December !! But what could i do ??!?! Until next time my lovelys.

Ciao

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Give me sleep ?

Haven't written a post in quite a few days but oh well nothing particularly interesting has happened if im honest. It's been absolutely lovely weather at last.. i love spring for one reason, the blossom on the tree outside my window is beautiful to wake up to. Saw jade on thursday did a bit of shopping and a costa break - i've finally tried one of the muffins they're amazing ! Mmmm. Thursday night i remember being quite emotional and 'numb' as i describe it. If you know me quite well, you'll understand that im not a phone call kinda girl..in fact i dread people ringing me BUT becky rang me and we talked for 30mins or so, thats a record for me okay?! Improvements.

Friday was a damn busy day, hot too! The boyfriend bought me some beautiful flowers and we chatted for a bit before i had to shoot off out again, then i trekked to see lucy and spent the majority of the time in the garden getting attacked by flys, a swarm of tree pollen and those big momma space hoppers. Darn kids. Throwing them over the fence. pfft. Sorry my posts are a bit on the boring side at the moment but theres not much going on with me at the moment. Saw Rozaa later that night, felt like i was pissing her off big time but hey. Watched the hangover and a bit of badboys 2 wahey ! Ahaa then i officially proclaimed that we were retards, all im going to say is seven you know what i mean homie ;)

Got tonns of coursework to do tomorrow, i would have done it today but i was so dead it was unreal. Felt like a crazy zombie pondering round the house with no knowledge of the english language apart from grunting occasionally...typical moody teenage style. You know how it is - unless thats just me ? Crumbs.

Too sleepy to write anymore, goodnight lovelys
Ciao
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